leaving to let you be happy, i dont wish to feel so awkward with you.
Certain things i choose to close an eye. I pretended nothing happened, i ignore.
The word TRUST is too big for me to say.
The word WAIT is to long for me to tell, i cant wait any longer.
I cant hold onto this anymore.
You once said something, but i doubt you can do it.
Because there isnt any trust left in us.
I'm really very upset today, it's my fault.

I lost basketball, because of working.
Left 2 more days to reconsider.
I have to leave next year.


eh hello, you freaking get your ass higher than mine if you can lah. do you think we welcome you? oh please,if you're capable, please please, dont come to our standard. you once scolded me saying im in Normal Acad right? think bout yourself,dont look down on people. you're no better than me, accept the facts. that I have better character, better looks, better skin colour, better brain, and BETTER SMELL. dont harm our health. your smell is just like the smell of my black smelly socks everytime after trainings. smart, then do not retain. if not, keep your fucking mouth shut to yourself. 


Been so long since i last bloggeddd.
So tired know):
I just had dinner with Trina, and we both are damn full:/
Went school at 10 plus, haha.
Yesterday night shortie teached me Geog!:D
Yaaay, i am home so early today! Weee~
But miss her so much cos i'm thinking bout her):
Didnt spend much time with her today, sigh sighhh.
It's so fake that im gonna wait, beause everyone calls me a big flirt.
It is not up to me to decide, all i know is i like you so much. Just that much.
(:


Hm.. I really like the memories.
You are the one that notice me, only.
But i dont want it, really..


It's raining and i'm waiting for the rain to stop so i can see my Someoneee):
Rain rain, please stopp, i miss her so much. Let me see herrr. )':

Hahaa, i suddenly remember one night, i forget is wheeen.
I miss that night lah lah lahh. I wanna find you again, and ask each other who we likeee.

I pei Someone to airrport on Suuuundaaay!
Kinda caught up with Abby(:
Was waiting for that woman for so long can, ):
Train-ed back with them, dropped at Aljunied.
Bus back to bedokkkk:D

So yeaaah, yesterday didnt turn up for schooool.
Went to find them at 11 am, but they released earrrlyyy.
Met L, Shortie and Charlleneee. Bus-ed to Tamp to find Trinaaa(:
Was playing 'hide & seek' with Trina. LOL.
But me and L alreaady ran out of the shop and went shopping round the mall.
waited for 17 with L, walked off.
Then i forget bout my primary school friends.
Luckily they gave me a missed call, so went to wait for 17 again!!!
Met Teng, Ying, Ariel, Windsor and 'jasmine??' with Shortiee at 109.
Back to FSPS but i didnt went in so slacked at 413 with Short peopleee!
My god my friends actually recognised me, and i cant really remember them.
Jingyuan became prettierrr liaoo, haha!
And ALL of them thought YP is my new one-.-
eew? LOL. okay okay, jokinggg!

I deleted most of the pictures inside my phoneee(:
So many unglams, ugly eh she. zzz.

i.am.afraid.
):
I really dont wish her to go deeper each daaay.
Which we know it's an impossible relationship.
Yet we're doing all these to fall in love. Sigggghhh.

I'm gonna meet L and that Someone soon:D
Miss you like hell okaay):


OhMyGod!!!! I am tired:\
LOL. I just reached home like less than an hour ago?
I'd been missing school quite a lot of days for this week, okay not really.
Tues & Wed didnt turn up for school, Thurs purposely went in late.
But was kind of sick in the morning. 'FEVER'
Hahaha, thennn was at the sick bay, gosh.
It's so hard to believe Mrs Joseph see me and talked to me yet never really bother bout my hair hair!
I suddenly miss Jiaolian, LOL. Alright maybe it's just that i need to wait till next wed then can see them):
Was suppose to serve suspension today(friday!), but didnt turn up.
Sooo.. do it on Wed? eh shit i cant! There's training!
I just remembereddd! -.- retarded.
Yeaaah then today after schoooool, sent L to the bus stop.
Aiyo gaaay, no fate ehhh! LOL.
But aiya, girls are just a nuisance.
What's the point of like.. Waiting for them righttt!
Find someone else suitable pleaseee, i know it's hard.
Be as flirt as me lah! LOL.
Okayokay, i really had a heart to heart talk with my dearest gay partner.
You'll be my best of the best:D

Hmmm.. After so long, i went into your blog again.
First post, with my name as title.
i feel bad, towards you.
I thought you'd already gotten over.
But, i didnt know the fact.
Still, i will say the same thing, treat me as your friend.
You should know we are over, no use clinging onto this relationship.
Putting on a fake smile.
Just, know that i'll be there as a friend, KAY!!!:D
Text me soon to chat if you want(:


YES! This post without Yingpei's name! LOL.
Okayy, let's seeeeeee......
Continue from sending Laurencia to the bus stoppp.
She missed two buses, yaaay!
Shortie went to my place to ressssttt.
Suppose to meet Gillien, but then she text me that she cant make it.
So we went back to sleep.
I really slept eh, for the second time onlyyyy!=P
Unlike someone, hahaha!
Sent her home, forced her to say who she likeee, omg.
She is finally matured to like people.
Woo woo, CROOKED!:D
Okay, SHHHH!
She asked me to pass her the letter after she tell me who is that girl, and she'll run off.
LOL, so cute.
Went to find her at 11 plus.
Awww, letter so sweeeeet. HAHA.
I'm gonna reply her letter laterrr, i am sleepy.
Goodnight!!!:D


I am backkk!!! LOL.
oh my god, i feel so piggy today, i ate alot.
My mum lah, she keep take food for me.
When i just wake up, when i reached home, when she cook another dish!
And she suspect that i steal her ciggs-.-
Gosh? i dont even smoke, i steal for what.
Then she now say i sell it.
zzz.
Anyway, who cares man, my mum still. so.. haiya just forgive her then. LOL.
I cab to school to find YP and Charllene todayy, then go Charllene's house.
Then went home with Piglet!

eee, ytd i saw her and i was so unlucky.
FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE LAH. I see you i'm really kind of unhappy.
okay i feel so LAMEEEE! I'm highhhh!
Yingpei talking to me on msn, siaozharbor.
she want a big big vegetablelet, who can buy for herrrr???(:

By the waaaay, i hate people to go to my friends and get close with them.
When we are no longer related to each other.
Would you like it if i purposely go to your good friends.
Can you just go away from my friends.
I know i cant control my good friends, i dont even bother telling them.
Cos i dont wanna watse any of my time talking bout you.
Get it? is it that difficult not to suck down to them and get close to them.
You this girl, i know you're full of motives.
i really hope i'll never hear your name anymore.


hello, yesterday i blog halfway then my stupid comp go close the window, and it's not saved-.-
Zzz! Haha, hmm Oh yah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Yingpei!:D
You're as old as meeee. LOL.
Remember, RE-MEM-BER! To be honoured luh!
My first time is with you! For making card and writing down so much stuffs on it.

I loveee Saturday cos Laurencia is able to go out at night!!!
It's the second time thoughhh.
Then afternoon met shortie first, slack till 3 plus meet Laurenciaaaa!
Slacking again, L left. Cycled back home to sleeeep!
Shortie is so heavy although she's short. O.o
haha, 7 plus took bus, reached Holy trinity and L joined us again(:
E!Hub, then downtown. Went to beach, cos we're curious bout seven month!
LOL. Nothing happen laah, so sat down at beach and chat.
ORH HOR, Laurencia! You make shortie so hard to breathe! LOL.
Went highhh, maybe cos we drank a bit.
That's what i'll always be when me and L started drinking.
Shortie was so scared of me cos she say later i'll still be with her!
LOL. Walked sloooowly, then sent Shortie back home.
I am a GentleeeBung okay, always sent you home one.

Sunday! Stupid shorte woke me up, and made me meet her so early!!!
What a nice friend right ME!
Stairs and waited for Trina for alotalotalot of hourssss.
Mac, nothing much.
Walked arounddd, still nothing much.
Dont know where to go, pathetic me!

So yesterday, hmmm....
was late for school):
Oh my god, scare me leh.
I was damn afraid that Joseph would come and catch my fringe but luckily i didnt get to see her!!!:DDD
Faster walked off with L.
Lessonsssss, was boring cos got LA.
Stupid HO was rolling her 'eyes', and she cant do it.
She was rolling her head instead.
But we didnt do much stuffs, was slacking in another room while most of the class is in the lab.
Wanted to find people to chat, but everyone round me, was student leaders.
then Gillien like sian sian so i dont really bother bout talking much alrdy.
My class only Zu Er and Angelica will talk bout relationship can.
What a boring class lah, stupid. All toot toot people-.-
Ended school, me and Jilyn left first cos training's outside school.
HO is forever dragging the lesson, hate it.
Canteen to put bag, asked L and Jilyn out of school to buy cake.
To smash it onto Shortie's face.
Rushed so fast, and yet we waited for the birthday girl kinda long.
Should have walked slowly instead right!
Shortie's so poor thing! Her face is suuupeer OILY!
Then i also kana cos i make Laurencia.
Only Shortie, L, Jilyn and i was playing i think. LOL.
Hugged Gillien cos i stink like hell thanks to the cake.
Butter smell! eeew):
Cab down toooo Bedok cc for training, then 3 of us hugged Charllene!
She screamed till my ears gonna burst :\
Had fun today with them, haha.
But training was tiring, Charllene actually went to calculate the numbers of push ups we did.
Which is 460. Retarded sia she.
Right leg almost cramp when i run fast or jump for the ball.
The first training in bedok cc i also almost cramp!
Ran damn slowlyy, if not leg cramp very pain one leh!):
And i dont know where to wipe my sweat cos everywhere also got cream!
Coach talked to us a bit.
Then Shortie emo-ed all the way.
Feel so tired, KFC with Jilyn shortie annabel and sheridyn.
Left, went home to rest.
Talked on the phone with L, and also waiting for Shortie to text me!
Then finally she sms me!
10 plus some woman called me and said she's afraid to watch the show alone. LOL.
How stupid can she be:D
She tell me smth, she said ' I WANT YOU TO BE THE FIRST AND THE LAST MAAA!'
LOL! I was thinking wrong, and so i laughed and she also think wrongly.
She said she was thinking bout STEAD!
Went to bed after our show end.
I woke up at 7.10 when L called me, then was so late.
Decided to skip school thennn.
Omg, i'm having alot of test papers back today leh):
I passed Science! I failed Chinese-.- LOL.
Only know two tests de resulttt.
Didnt really study leh, howhowhow!
Bet my maths gonna fail cos 11 marks went off.
I spent too much times on those easy questions.
Cos i scared i'll be careless.
Humphhhh!!!
Okay so i'll be meeting shortie at 3 later(:
Yaaay! i miss my teammates. LOL.
I wanna have training with themmm, Shannon, Danni, Ni Ma, Shan Yen, Wei Min, Charllene Jilyn and lastly my good good friend Yingpei!
Juniors too, cos i wanna see the Faith run, her actions are damn cute yknow!
I remembered yesterday i suddenly laughed so loud when i see her do the 'fake' thing.
She cant land her both legs on ground, she must JUMP JUMP JUMP, Jump until she happy then land.
Okay, i post very long today(:
Byebye!


Wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai..
I miss the person in my heart so much now):
sighhh.. I wanna see her.
Can you give me a hug once more,
I feel so great with your arms around me.
& i got the urge to return the hug.
I miss you alot yknow.. stupid woman.

Can't really remember what happened yesterday.
Hmmm.. Oh i remembered (:
hahaha, slacked with L charllene and yp again:D I feel so tired now, and sad!!!
Then evening left, for dinner with my mummy.
Order quite alot of food although there's only the two of us.
Home! And went praying of the festival thingy.

So today never attend school.
Cos shortie also never go, so i'm getting lazierrrr!
met her at tamp before school ends.
To buy presentsss.
I think she waited for me for kinda looong!):
Sorry! Bus back to school, meet L, Jilyn and Charlleneee.
RAn to school cos it was raining, to get my shoe bag.
Had lunch too, CHIONG AH! LOL.
Bedok CC for training, L said we walked like some big gang.
When there's like only 13 of us including L???!
End training then mac with the four blue women.
Left bedok to met Trina at tamp againnn.
She said she waited for me for 2 hoursss, LIKE REAL!
Cos she was listening to some stories, which she thinks it's a torture to her, LOL.
Sent her home for the FIRST time, and i fell down(-.-) for the FIRST time in my secondary school life.
damn it lah, so suey.
Part of it was cos i am supeeeer(!) tireeeed!
Then she said i GongGong one, and like some small kids! HAHAAA.
I'm seriously feeling so tired):
Missyou so much, can you can you can youuuuuu?
Will you will you will you??
I like you for so long already, you stupid.


i am sleepy.
Didnt reaaally sleep in the afternoon);
Was with L, Charllene and YP after school.
Slack in school, then left.
L and i was talking bout stuffs under her block.
Was kinda serious talk, then suddenly when we talk halfway,
guess what? The wind was damn strong, so, someone's BRA dropped down-.-
laughing like hell man, the loudest laughters we had after so long.
Thanks uh, Bra(:
haha! God, it's so.. zzz!
So we two were talking what if next time we're with our girlfriends and suddenly all these happen.
Thinking so far ahead. Lol.
And we talked alot bout girls.
And decided to continue tmrw before school:D
So i'm meeting her at 6.45 O.o

Went home with YP, she was 'sleeping' inside my room again,
while i was bathinggg. Tmd, she switched off my heater can.
But i not scared of cold, only scared hot! so i dont care!:P
Rest awhile, then at night sent her back.
& i went to grandma place to slack.
Oh! RHYMES. LOL.
Randommm..
Okay, hmm. So i just reach home?
Oh, i suddenly rmb bout the conversation about my class.

WeiTing: where should i sit for Mother Tongue?
Jilyn: Inside your mother's mouth.

Oh man, i heard it with ZuEr, then we two were laughing like hell?
Get the joke uh?
YES! Tmrw samesamesame:DDDDD
LOL. I getting high:D HAHAHA.
Oh oh, yesterday i went mad TOTALLY.
We seriously, oh man-.-
I drank with them, then i dont know where the hell is my phone.
So later it rang, and i thought is some fish that is kinda alive?
And i put it inside the fridge-.-
Ohmygod, i'm so retarded. Funny ah.
Was quite awake, i think around 1 am?
Text those people that msg me.
alotalot msg and missed calls.
And i slept at 3 plus, went school at 8 plus.
I did my test and i was so awake still O.o
My eyes were like O_O during test. LOL.

Hey, i miss you so much..
You filled up my mind.
And i cant stop thinking of you):
Argh, you are so annoying!!!
Miss you you you lehhh. But you dont knoooow.
Nevermind lor, you also dont have to know. cheyyy..

Please lor, you want to protect your junior,
You tell her lah.
You tell me got use is it?
How am i suppose to toy with her when we two are just good friends?
Whats wrong with you man.
Why dont you tell me that you wanna protect Laurencia?
Since she's the bestest friend of mine?
& please, get the damn fact right,
do i look like i like her?
does she look like she like me?
I admit i like her so what, because all of you are making me so pissed off.
Suspecting this suspecting that, gossiping this gossiping that.
Whats the point if i deny i like her?
No point. You people wanna talk bout it, go ahead.
I dont give a damn.
yah man, i like her seh.
damn alot, jealous uh-.-
I like her till the whole school know okay. happy?
what the hell zzz.
make things clear before you talk to me can.


Hey i know, it'll be hard to get over.
But, it's just something you have to do yknow.
everything's in the past.
I'm sorry that i replied your text.
But all i thought is just be friends..
Do not go back to the past, it really hurts.
But i know i'll never forget about us alright.
Thanks for your beautiful memories, girl.
Get over, okay?(:

So hard, to describe..
Why are you doing this, it makes me love you more.
Miss you, miss your touch, miss your smile, miss your laughters.
Miss everything, especially when we're close.

Was with Shortie today. haha.
Had fun with you okay:D
The world stealing day, she dont want give me her heartttt!!!!
Grrr. LOL. Dinah wanna steal my humour, shortie want my freedom O.o
and M wants my money?! HAHA.
But whenever people ask me, i dont need anything :\
Dinah say want my hair very mafan, must wax here and there. tsk!!!


I finished cooking yknow! LOL.
Stupid shortie thought i cant cook!:P
But she herself, sighhh. Gone case, dont bother telling! LOL.
Friday didnt turn up for school, yet i went for traininggg.
Met L first then Gillien came over:D
Then 3 mad woman, Jilyn, Shortie and Charllene.
They all were busy buying ice cream though:\
Went back school for traaaining.
End alr then i WASH face, so shortie go round telling people what i use!
Lol! BBT, cab back with them.
At night, dont know who ask me go find her worh!
Then i chiong the letter, walk walk to her house there find her.
She said, she walked out of her house then never see me.
So she RUN back, so after that i told her i at the traffic light,
she walk out again. LOL.
She went HIGHHH, and keep making the car noise-.-
Noisy lah you.
Yesterday i went granny's place at 3 plus, met shortie at 3 plus too.
Then borrowed History book from Jilyn.
Her house to 'study',
For 5 hours?! i think we are sleeping instead horrr.
But i studied for 4 pages. Lol.
Hanru came in then she become sooo quiet!
Went out of the house, granny place to take bikeeee.
Cycled shortie arounddd, she lah.
So heavy still want me cycle for sooo long.
Basketball court slack, twicee.
Almost fell asleep when she's sleeping then someone text me and woke us up.
And she saw a frog-.- LOL retarded mann.
I actually spent 7 hours with the short one :O
haha, then i reach my house at 11 o clockk.
Fell asleep at my living room.
Then woke up at 2.30 i think so i went into my room and sleep.
Suddenly i saw 'Piglet' in my inbox. LOL.
Chat till 3 plus, we finally went back to sleeeep!
Maybe will go and find her in the afternoon laterrrr(:
The Tenth day! haha!
I feeeeel kinda sleepy now, may be due to lack of sleep!
Or busy in the morning just noww.
Argghh miss youu so much yknoww..
Okay i wanna stop hereee:D
Goodbyeee;] heh


Twelve.
I know you'll be reading, Ys.
It's okay if you wanna text me.
We can still be friends if you want(:
I'm always here as a friend, for everyone including you.
I do need a friend sometimes, thats why i am a friend of yours.
Cheer up babe!

Today didnt really turn out to be a good day for me.
I had 5 injuries today in the afternoon.
So i went to school at 8 plus.
Was damn tired, i didnt really intend to come school.
But i just get my ass off the bed.
Bathe, prepared and i went school.
School was okay lah, thought Gillien would be late O.o
Then Maths, yp was having her recess.
So she told me she was outside my class but when i went out she wasnt there-.-
I went up to third level for maths, then she say she going up,
The kamalia go change class!
So she said we NO FATE! LOL.
Recess, was quite okay:D
After school met Charllene, Yp, L and her Natalie with Gillien, Jilyn and Zu' Er!
Went Mac together, slack slack awhile.
Then back school for study skills.
Were busy throwing socks, we played like siao and create lots of noise.
Time passed fast:D
All our hair like mad woman like that, esp Yp. LOL.
L's hair kana pulled off by En Qi, omg pathetic -.-
It's like freaking fun for today de SS. Gosh.
Basketball with all the crazy peeps.
Played 3 0n 3.
Stupid ball hit my hand and middle finger was swollen like hell.
They said it was pregnant at the wrong place. LOL. w.t.F lah they!
Eunice scratched meeee, and i realize she scratched 3 different sides instead of 1.
I'm on the phone with Jilyn, YP, Annabel and L.

Hey, i dont know why you gotta betray me just for attention.
Get your own damn life lah.
You were the one creating so much troubles for me.
Yet you told me, you know what to do and wanted me to do it.
You think i dog is it.
I even wanted to create a clique to get you join in.
But no, i dont even trust you anymore.
It would be awkward for me to say my PERSONAL stuffs to my GOOD friend,
And you're gonna eavesdrop our conversation.
AND you'll freaking go round spreading rumours-.-
You should know, who you're.


okay i just gottt back home.
Very hungry can.
I think i got one post, but dunno where is it leh O.o
I feel so tired now.

Eh? Was it yesterday?
Went to fetch YP from her house then to Tamp to find cousin and June.
So went round tamp, so boring lah walaooo. haha!
Then Jilyn cab down, CS waited for Annabel.
So went airport 'study' O.o
Okay i really very lazy to type! LOL.

I had PE today, mr poh pick 12 of us to play dont know what badminton thing leh.
Not that boring, but no close friend to talk to except Zu Er when we're playing!
YP asked me to post 'YINGPEI IS THE BEST'
But like shit like that lor she!
She cant cook one, except for noodles.
Zzz! Short hands, cant really cook i think. LOL.
Alright laaah hmm.. after school stayed back for English thing again.
Met Yp after that. She saw my dog then she saw Sparky.
Spark's taller than her, gosh.
Then go basketball court, no hook how to play hello.
No wonder nobody cannn.
Went to another one, Jilyn came down and played with us.
So after that WENT HOMEEE. Yayyy.

Want to bathe already luh, cos Shortie keep reminding me. LOL.
Like as if she's going to smell me the whole day like that. Tsk/
Goodnight lah!


Woke up with swollen eyes and feverrr-.-
But it kind of subsided then i put eyes drop lor.
Then June text me. Went out with her.
Had lunch after she cut her hair.
Then went to 217.
I saw Kiki! She's cute, but no hair one, like the owner like that.
Righttttt! haha.
Slacked awhile at stairs.
Stupid Ying Pei make me plan so much to go Tamp find her,
Then end up she needs to go sinseh!
Your stupid knee-.-
Cousin asked me to join her at ahma's place.
Bump onto mummy in the bus oh my gosh-.-
Then i slept in the afternoonnnn, i think? O.o
8 plus went to find pei to collect basketball.
She say want to complain what sai then she see my cousin, she so quiet.
Whatthehell right she! TSK.
Called her, she finally complain to me.
So homeeee:D Yayyy, hehhhehhhh.

i.miss.you.out.of.a.sudden.................................

Oh yah! I suddenly remember what we plan tgt when i'm with Trina!
After Common Test, we're going JB:D
Coolzzz! Lol! But then only the two of us.
Maybe anyone of you can join then tell us! Hehe.
I haven't asked my mummy yet.
Most probably can, cos my bro's over there.
Yeah! haha.
I'm still kinda angry at the team.
What the F luh.
Causing so much troubles, zzz//

It's time, but i just lack of the courage.
I think you would be better off without me.
So why do i have the need in seeing you in another state since you're happy.
I wouldnt wanna spoil your mood or whatever.
So, i'm here to wish you, Happy B'day(:
i'm still in love with you, yet i have to see you leaving me.
It's cruel to me, but whenever you're happy, so do i.
I really hope everything will turn out fine for you:)
Alright baby i'll love you always.
Goodbye.


Just came homee.
I actually went to school okay! LOL. Most of them are shockeddd!
Was quite okay, but boring in class:\
I just finished cutting my toe nails anywayyy! HAHA.
Then school dismissed, stupid sec 1s say got what shit party.
Party till parkway with senior.
Dont want self train then tell us earlier.
Do you know we will get so pissed off.
Going for training is not our responsible,
It's for your own stamina.
Skills, and future.
Go have some self reflect.

So yeah after school met shortie againnnn.
Played a bit of ball, then went out of school.
Wanted to go bbt, but all of the shops are not open yet.
So 7-11 for drinks.
65-ed, she fell asleep again okay!
Then i cant sleep TSK.
She took my watch back home my gosh, i know you'll miss me lah.
But dont need like that one yknow!
HAHAHA!
So i 65 back to Tamp for movie.
Ticket, then went to have lunch.
We are the poor people:D LOL.
So we shopped around, till 4.15
Watched UP(3D).
Heh! It was cuteee, yay(;
And the ticket cost $13, what the hell.
So we went for dinner, slack around.
Talk talk talk:)
Then homeeee:D
I am tired, i wanna sleep soon manz. Haha(:
Hope thurs Pei can go for movie ;D
Okayyy, i going to rest soon.
Still waiting for my show to start:/

whenever i see you, i just feel like protecting you.
but i rly dont wanna snatch with her.
Although she like you, but you dont.
You'll be someone for me to like, not someone for me.
(: im here for you. Goodnight.


If i lock my blog, then dont always hack into my account.
Please respect my decision.
I dont wanna have anything to do with you anymore, get this clear.
I really hope we will not be seeing each other anymore.
I'm so fucking pissed off at you, always changing my pw.
And dont always go to my friend to lend their account.
Give me your blessings, i really wanna be happy without you.
For the last time i beg you, alright. Thanks.

So yeah today, was almosttt late. Phew.
If not i gotta serve 6 hours for themmm.
Then after school, we played Badminton.
I played awhile then left, for Teng's dad funeral.
Met Ying first, then we went there together.
Later on, L joined us for awhile.
Left, and slack around with her.
Waited for Ying Pei, so L go alrdy):
Walk walk walk, then this stupid shortie left the shirt at Charllene's house-.-
See lah, retarded! Humph.
So walk back to take, all thanks to HER okay.
Your fault, shortie(;
Then passed by the funeral, had a few words then went off to the bus stop.
We walked for damnnnnn looong okay. Oh my gosh.
I so tired alrdy, then she still so retarded dont want let me rest on her SMALL LITTLE shoulders.
Then she fall asleep on mine.
Say i short somemore, i'm 6 cm taller than you okay!
Walked her back home.
Then i fell asleep for quite long.
Cos i'm seriously very tired.
Now also, eyes like pencil lead like that. ONE line alrdy okay.
Another shortie also, say what meet meet meet for supper, in the end sleep alrdy. TSK.
All short people are annoying:/
Wonder why they sleep so early, yet unable to grow! tsktsktsk
Oh! It's gonna be 1 am in 5 mins time. LOL.
My mum suddenly fry nuggets! :O HAHA!
MUUUUVEEEE TMRW. heh.
But it's after training, so i'll be stinky.
Prepare to faint AHEM. HAHA!
Okay, i want to sleeeep sooooon(:

Gillien Loh, you ah, better get well soon!
if not next time i see you, you get it from me:D
See you, spotty girl ;)


Late for school.
Actually is meet them for breakfast but i went back to sleep:X
LOL! Then bus-ed to school.
Waited for Bra-der, and then alrdy late.
So we went carpark slack.
Played BlackJack, at first lost, then win then lost all back again-.-
Tsk. L lah, two ace okay! LOL.
RTC-ed, then back to class(:
Recess, some stupid girls dont know how to 'colour' the hair,
then anyhow make until like shit like that!
I have orangeeee hair todayyy. LOL.
Lessons, talk talk talk. Butch butch butch.
End school end school, have lunch have lunchhh.
Then back to school for study skills.
Slack at Cafe first then up for the thingy.
It's not interesting today, retarded tsk tsk.
End alrdy, cab with J to ahma house.
Walk her back to her house then i went backkkk.
Cab home at night. Very tiredd):
OH, MANNN, i did household chores okay.
Anyway, it's freaking tiring.
But i dont understand why housewives are fat :\
Haha, im about to sleeeep soon(;
Dont know why alot ppl like to talk to me until they sleep one seh-.-
What the hell cannn, PANGSEH-ERS):
Yayy, movieeee!
Im watching 'UP' soon:D!
Goodnight Peepz!


What the hell!
Tmrw got PE!
I hate it man. Need to see that bloody...-.-
Grrr..
I'm like totally POK! today alrdy.
Damnzz yesterday ah, mummy took $50 from me.
Then give ahma $40. So today, jialat man.
My wallet only got 10 bucks. W.T.F
Then today Granny got appointmentttt.

Helloooo, i edit that post le ah. *SEESEE!*
Don't put any blames onto Yingpei/Trina alrdy.
Thanks(:
Opps, i forget to call shortie tonight:X
Lol.


Awaiting for your message,
to start a conversation.
to ask me if i'm free.
to ask me out.
I wait, alone at home. Not going out in case you're willing to meet me.
Till i couldn't wait anymore, i text you. You took kinda long to reply.
And you didnt intend to reply me, i know.
Okay, i tried asking you out. The answer straight away was No thanks.
I know i hurt you so much. That you're even scared of me now i think.
But i already tried ignoring you during training.
I text you again, i thought you would wait for it to end. Instead, you went back.
Tell me straight then, i don't wanna have anymore false hope.
Whats that hug and kiss for, since you'd already given up.
I am a flirt, i know. But its not easy to get over you.
Do you even know how deeply i fall for you.
I miss you terribly.
Always hoping for your messages, to meet me.
The best solution for me not to think, is to be with you like that night.
Which, i know it'll never come again.
You'd changed, even more than i thought.


Trina: You're not in school now?! who is the girl? I wanna know the name la. hahahah.

Me: I think you know her! Haha. Don't tell you:P I quit school already.

Trina: Whats her name??! Haha tell me lahhh. And why did you quit school?! Why why why.

Me: I don't want to tell you! Because i going private school!(: i shave my hair!

Trina: Tell me tell me tell meee, i wont tell anyone. Huhh, why you go private school. Isnt sac better.............

Me:You ask my classmates. Haha. Cos i can't stand sac's teacher. Eh you know who is melissa chen?

Trina: Huhh. so sad. Lets go out one day since you're not in sac anymore. Hehe. Err melissa chen from sec what?


Oh, i feel so bad lying to Crow that i quit school. LOL.
I think tmrw during recess if i bump onto her, my ears gonna burst!
And i'm sure i'll laugh like hell to see her face so red.
10.05, i think you guys will hear until my horrible laughters.
And she's gonna meet me on tuesday! HAHA!
When i was like telling her i quit school, then i kept laughing.
Oh man. I'm so baddd!
Okay i am going out soon to meet friends laterrrr.
Will update more once i reach home!;)

edittttedddd/

Sorry.. It's was because i care.
I didn't mean to slap you so many times.
I was harsh.
Still disappointed. Of some other things.
Sigh, i just found out smth again..
No mood le. Goodbye;)


Gave school a miss.
It's killing me.
Seriously, i can die. Every second, tossing round.
It hurts):
Gonna lock my blog i thinkkk.
Don't wish to let SOME PEOPLE read it.
She's a fucktard.
Should've gone to school today then tmrw dont go!
Friday, crap training again.
Wasn't feeling very well, just in a fear..
Yesterday, accidentally let out my anger on Angelica,
I dont know why.
What a horrible me! sorry friend);

edited//
i feel so tired at home!
& whole day smsing some weirdos.
LOL. People like JUNE-.-!
hahaha. hmmm, I'm still like deciding whether to wait nottt.
But what if nobody accompany me! Tskkkkkk!
tired.tired.tired.tired.tired.tired,tired,tired,tired,TIREDDD):

I just can't bring myself to like another girl.
Can’t believe I had a girl like you,
And I just let you walk right out of my life.
But as long as you're fine with them, i'll be fine with it then.


I dont know anything.
I dont wish to know.
I hadnt eaten anything since morning except for the potato after training.
Wanna make myself hungry but i cant.
My gastric's killing me.
sighhh.
yay basketball i finally get to play during match.
Cos normally i think the female coach dont like me,
she always dont ask me in to play.
i had fun during training to vent out my anger on, the ball.
But after it, i keep take a deep breath and always, tears came down.
Heart gotta feeling that is really killing me.
Im trying my best to get over ys..
Guys, dont have to worry(;
I'm afraid, i'll just break down tmr.
I dont know the reason either.
I'm just kinda sad, heart ache.
Give me a month, i think things will turn back round.
I wouldnt wanna stay like that too, im really hoping HARD..
today's the sixth day, i thought by forcing myself hard not to talk to you,
will make me get over.
However... sigh.
Its been kinda long since someone sat down and had an enjoyable meal with me.
Just me.
Grab me before i fall for other girls. Its hard to move on...

Okay, now i thinkkk i ____ her):
She's so ____:D
And i ____ her just so much, you're adorableee ^^
You'll be the only one to help me, i guess.
I do need your help.
My heart's aching, where are you to help me to get it through.
I will be waiting. For you to give me your hands and pull me up.
Be there for me. I need you.


Miss Chiew left today..
I was sad, yet i didn't express it out till she step out of 2.3
Tear a bit, and think alot in the quiet class with some of us crying.
She's the first that i couldn't bear to let go in sac.
She's the first that motivated us.
She's the first that made our class did so much.
But she'll be the last for us to cry, because she's really a great teacher.

Alrighttt.. Wait for coach till 5 plus i think.
Watched them trained, sorry that i didn't turn up and make most of you suffer in the trainings.
Shortage of people, it's really tough for you guys.
Then bbt awhile, went home.
Wanted to meet that spastic Iffah, but she's too smelly. Lol.

Why am i staying as the good guy, and not the other way round like before.
I wanna change for the better.
But no one's moving me on.
No one cheering me up.
No one picking me up.
But i dont think, i gotta make it up to her.
I feel so empty today, just for today.
Mum, went gambling again.
And she always get money from me.
Am i even suppose to be the one giving her money instead of she giving me.
no one to hear me out.
I'm, t.i.r.e.d)':
Our status, changed..


Sunday, when ahma house for steamboatttt.
haha. scare me, she suddenly want the whole family down and she said she wanna tell us smth.
pheeewww.
Then played Blackjack with cousins and our ahma! haha.
Only ahma and i won:P

Monday, at night Granny had an appoitment with the doc, so i went along.

Tuesday, i went down to play ball for an hour, i met the little boy again(:


So ytd stayed back for study skills thing.
Then cab to ahma place again with Jilyn and Ying Pei.
I think thanks to Jilyn that's why i have to waste $$$ on cab okay!
Then, to Jilyn's place, they bought bbt.
Then then then YP's house, Jilyn lefttt.
So we went to play ball until 7 plus going 8 caaannnn.
Shortieeee, really very short(:
Suspensionnnnn);
Thanks to that damn Lopez, buey gam wan is ittt.
Fucker sehh_l_
Don't deny you never pick on me ok, our class got 38 ppl,
im sure at least HALF will agree with it.
Talk to students till so sarcastic, talk to parents act nice nice nia
As a co form teacher, you dont even understand your students well.
Go home and lie on bed forever la.
Look at your damn size, walk also walk so slow.
Dont walk la, stay home let your whoever serve you till you kana disease and faster go hell la.
Be what sai teacher. kanasai.

Some fucking ass, stop asking bout me ok.
You want care, dont show.
You wanna show then ask yourself, do you even have the rights to care.
I dont give a damn bout you anymore siar.
Where the fuck are you when i needed someone.
You freaking go off from my life from the day you stepped out of it.
Im sick and tired of your games.
I dont have the time or energy to play with you any longer.


Dunno what to blog leh, doing nothing nowww.
oh, mum's coming back home, i think she lost all her money O.o
Poor thing, blame herself for being greedy! Lol
Forgotten to withdraw money to pay for class tee. haha!
And i'm gonna do my Science homework later, maybeee.
If not then tomorrow ask my fellow classmates to help me, heheee.
Okay, i'm like sian can.
I fell asleep again at home when bebe is like just beside me.
HAHA. omg sorry, i am tired whattt.
Got two assignments today ma.
Did i say bout the year book thing related to Danielle's mummy? lol!
If i'm not wronggg, she said she showed her mummy my face in the book,
And her mum said this ' Oh my, what a pretty face. So sweet. '
haha, okay fine i very tired now, so got not much emotionsss.
But i know i was laughing like mad when i read her message.

Ermm, Beeee dont get yourself into this type of ahlians trouble alr
You also not oneee, i want my good girl back, that's what i wished for.
Things, let them be. So what if ppl provokes you.
Just tell me lah retarded, waste your time on those girls that loves to stare stare stare for what.
Meeting outside school is like sec 1 kids always do one lah.
Like me luh, last time. haha, rightttt.
I dont deny that i'm not angry for you.
But what's the point.
She stare, you stare luh.
She do whatever shit, then you copy lah.
She want play with you then you PLAY luh.
I also can join jiejie you all leh!
Omg that Dongping a bit the sot in her mind.
She asked me whether am i a les O.o
And she want to have Blogger, LiveJournal, Facebook and Twitter!
Oh my gosh. haha. Alright, i go create one for her first(:
Goodnight peeps!
Baby, ily^^( i scared she see o.O)


Didn't attend schoooool, for 2 days):
Got MC, for the first time eh. haha.
I'm going to fetch bebe soon, yay!
After so long, can see herrr.
haha, mannn. I suddenly think of the past :O

Anyway yesterday, got alot ppl go to the doc leh!
Morning, XuePing went to consult($31)
Afternoon, my turn($38)
At night, brought Granny to the doc with my uncle, cousin and mum.($155)
No wonder, be doc alot $$$ earn. Haha!

hmm, i dunno why some people LOVES to comment on some sec 2 girl.
Oh please, what's so wrong with a girl carrying the same COLOUR bag as your friend?
Does your friend own the colour?
Wake up lah, immatured girl.
You're not primary four? or four years old.
You're freaking sec four okay.
Do you like it if i do that to you.
Obviously no.
Yes, it's more childish for the person to go and find you if it's only over a small thing.
But think, it's not the only thing you'd done to make them pissed off.
Even me, what had you done to make me get angry.
Aiya, i'm not so free to be bothered with ppl that loves shouting in school.
This is the 3rd time i heard you went around barking like some damn mad dog.
Do you even know why so many ppl dislike you.
Just grow up, and maybe grow taller before you act like some ah lian.
And please, you've got no rights to say about that G.
At least the person you talked to ytd is so much better than you.
You yourself got rejected so much more times than her alright.
haha, won't name it ALL out lah, if not you'll paisehhh(;






I'm blogging! haha. yah lah duh, not blogging then why on blog!
I just came home midnight.
Was a tiring day, but it's fun.
She said i kicked her when i'm sleeping! HAHA.
I missed my damn tuitorial-.-
zzz..
Anyway 12 is cominggg O.o
That's real fast, haha.
Randommmm.. Gillien's coming back to school, woohoo(:
she'll get a 'surprise' from us! Lol.
Oookay i got nothing much to sayyy. let me think firsttt...
oh oh, i got POP POP! LOL.
Went around like scaring people?
But i keep forgeting to play with it.

This week was kinda close with Juneee.
Asked her out and all, slack.
Kana caught by security for smoking, not me is her!
And met Benjamin to buy stuffs for us cos we're still underage. haha.
Let's see when will we be free and meet up againnn;)
Oh yah, some people out there,
i don't wish to hear you guys saying i'm with another girl please.
This is annoying me the shit out-.-

If you ever once cried for me,
your tears are just so fake.
Go find someone else
I'm letting you go, I'm loving myself.
You got a problem.
But don't come asking me for help.


O.o!!!!
Someone, sent me thissss....

' Hi, you'd just received a parcel from our dearest customer named mrs leng ah pui.
She'd trusted us with our service and it's safely reached your hand.
please take good care of it, because inside is something special, and not everyone can get and feel it!
Are you ready to FEEl it? OH YEAH FUCK ME~~~
ooops, sorry wrong!
this parcel not only contain kisses from mrs puipui, but also, the lots of love and care she'd put in for her dearest baby to feel when she's not around.
I hope you feel loved!
From your dearest mrs pui ah fat, to her chubby hubby, with lots of love and kisses.
MUACCCCCKKKK! :D
Sweet dreams! Iloveyou! '

I think this person ah, the brain got something not right! HAHA.
Anywayyyyy... Today which issss Saturday! Is myyyyy ^PAY DAY!!! ^
$ . $ Heheee!
I'm buying this bike for my aunt's friend!
Oh my goddd, that siao dua neh bu has gone crazy!
' Dua neh bu ' is what i used to call her when i'm only sec 1 O.o
Who ask her boobs so big anyway. Uh ohhhh.. DIE.
I think that was when we just started!
I got goooood memory!:D
I only know whenever i got new friend i'll give them some weird weird names?
HAHA. Ok i am so lame.
school's gonna reopen soooon, and i'll get back to school.
that's so... FINALLY???
Gillien Loh! Dinah Lim! who elsee..
Nobody already, the rest of them useless friend-.-
Okay, i miss you guys man!!!
Anyway, is L back from Genting??? O.o

I'm going out in twelve hours timeee! Yipee.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Yes, I'll treat you to Fish & Co!(:
Must love me more luhhh!
But i won't:P
Because it'd just reached the maximum;)
Nights:D


yesterday was slackkk!
Nobody yeah!:D haha.
but very sian without a butch talking to me bout our feelings.
Instead, guys talking bout girlfriend! lol.
Tampines after that, then saw my cousin there, after that bump onto June-.-
Suey!

Todayy, i'm at Geylang now, going play jackpot soon!
But i wanna pee. wait til i happy then i go gambleeee:P
Lol. i'm gonna be free today and tommorrow, if not work's going to start on monday, tuesday, thursday and friday!
Maybe saturday will be my last day and i'll get my payyyy!!!:DDD
Goodbye(:


Longggg long never blog. haha.
Been busy working lately.
I asked for off day today to accompany L, and her.
But when i reached to meet her, my line was cut off-.-
Fuck starhub, what lousy service you have.
wth can, everytime when my mum last minute pay, they wait wait wait for 5 days like that, come cut off my line?! zzz.
June's not working tomorrow, nobody buy food for me! haha.
Only Ben and Weijie.
And only Ben, June and i will 'Bio' girls. Haha!
Siew Mai! Dua Pao!(inside joke)

I'm tired, real tired.
Maybe i can say, i'm just working to numb myself.
Make me not to sms you.
And i have $ earn! hahaaa.
My right side fingers are swollen);

And that crow, do not think that that bang from me was just a joke.
I've been hoping to get myself to meet until you, & finally that day came.
Whatever you said in your LJ, don't think it's locked and i can't read.
I'll remember the slap i owe you, for sure, i'll just give it to you.
look out for more hard bang.


Yeah, i had a shock on friday too.
Didn't know things will turn out well for us.
My mum, even allow you to be mine.
Your dad, yes. but firstly, we got to do well in our studies.
This is the reason why i'm gonna sign up for tuitions.
I'll do well in studies, won't disappoint them, for the sake of our future.
But i just need one promise.
Do not lie to your parents.
He'd lost the trust in you whenever they know you are lying.
All he is asking for are just the truth.
Baby, just do this for me.
I hope you will.

Alrightttt! Today (Saturdayyyy) , i woke up with disappointmentsssss.
More and more things are going in to my ears.
You are still lying to me.
Although your innocent face, got me to believe everything you said and promised.
But, it betrayed my heart.
Maybe, i will tell you that,
i need some time to get over this,
asap, i will stop myself from thinking of that damn shit.
Girl, if you are serious about me,
please do not hurt me.
You're still using me, am i right?
I'm just a fool to let you use, but maybe one day,
this fool will step out of your life.
Love, is smth that is sweet.
To me, every moment without you talking to me,
things came crashing down and my mind made the whole history repeat.
I'm sorry if i did showed you atitude, it was still because,
I Can't Trust You, Anymore. So sorry.

I just realise most of my closer friends didn't really contact me):
YouYou, i guess you'd found someone you like nowww.
And i'm happy for you.
Hope you'll move on.
Don't be silly and like someone for 7 months already!(:
Goodluck:D

G! 14, SAC. BASKETBALLERRR


I want HER:D

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