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Sunday, May 24, 2009

Yeah, i had a shock on friday too.
Didn't know things will turn out well for us.
My mum, even allow you to be mine.
Your dad, yes. but firstly, we got to do well in our studies.
This is the reason why i'm gonna sign up for tuitions.
I'll do well in studies, won't disappoint them, for the sake of our future.
But i just need one promise.
Do not lie to your parents.
He'd lost the trust in you whenever they know you are lying.
All he is asking for are just the truth.
Baby, just do this for me.
I hope you will.

Alrightttt! Today (Saturdayyyy) , i woke up with disappointmentsssss.
More and more things are going in to my ears.
You are still lying to me.
Although your innocent face, got me to believe everything you said and promised.
But, it betrayed my heart.
Maybe, i will tell you that,
i need some time to get over this,
asap, i will stop myself from thinking of that damn shit.
Girl, if you are serious about me,
please do not hurt me.
You're still using me, am i right?
I'm just a fool to let you use, but maybe one day,
this fool will step out of your life.
Love, is smth that is sweet.
To me, every moment without you talking to me,
things came crashing down and my mind made the whole history repeat.
I'm sorry if i did showed you atitude, it was still because,
I Can't Trust You, Anymore. So sorry.

I just realise most of my closer friends didn't really contact me):
YouYou, i guess you'd found someone you like nowww.
And i'm happy for you.
Hope you'll move on.
Don't be silly and like someone for 7 months already!(:
Goodluck:D

everything comes to an end at 1:33 AM.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

If i love to be alone.
Is all because of you.
Last time, you always leave me alone.
What can i do except for getting used to it?
Yet now you are blaming me.
If you are not able to take it,
Leave.

everything comes to an end at 9:30 PM.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

el lo el lo???

HAHAHA.

Yo! what what i did yesterday!!!

Only rmb having lunchhh at PastaMania nia niaaa!

OH MANNN. I rmb liao nehxz!

We play aaaarrrrr CHU!

No lah arcadeee!(:

Today go meet YS & L.

While waiting for YS, i played ball myself-.-

Fucking bastard was playing her GROSSEST darling's PSP!

HUMPH!!!

Then then L went back,

So had lunchhh.

Then basketball again.

UNGLAMS!:D

Sighhh.. i wanna go beach.

zzz

Made me so high yet disappointments againnnnnn. urghhh.

everything comes to an end at 7:56 PM.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Friends,

may seems nothing to me anymore.

may be my everything.

If only you'd known,

just how many times did you lie to me?

How many times you disappoint me?

Although i text you like nothing happened yesterday.

But do you know how hurt i felt?

If you don't want to waste my time,

please do not ask me to go and meet you yet you got to go.

And i saw you walking slowly.

I thought i found you guys and treated you all as my bestest friends.

But only now, i realise Gillien is my one and only good friend.

And as for the other one.

You too, love wasting my time.

planned to meet, yet you don't want.

I am seriously very tired of your nonsense.

sms me?

Yet,to me, like i owe you fucking billions of dollars?

It is always the same of you making my mood worse.

Love,

about us, i didn't tell anyone.

And we always have quarrels.

I can't even stabilize, anything.

Everything are so weird right now.

everything comes to an end at 12:14 PM.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Hehe, i miss you so muchhh.

There's no school for me tomorrow.

Bored):

Planned to go Macs with Angelica, Zu Er, Gillien, & YS for tmr.

And play basketball with L.

I've been playing basketball for 5 days i guess.

Yesterday was quite tiring, cos was with cousin.

& we played for 2 hours.

And morning i played too-.-!

Last few days was playing with YS, even at the arcade. Lol!

Today i woke up quite early and i went down to play alone, for TWICE.

Evening was with Teng Teng!

Then we went Inter togetherrr.

I'm in love.... I love you, BASKETBALL:D

I'd learnt a new ball handling!

Oh, yesterday we bullied a small china boy with my bball!

LOL.

heehee, what else...

Aiya i can't remember much. haha.

): i don't like my fringe..

When are you going to grow...

sigh, pleaseplease.

Can you just treat everyone equally? manz.

wtf is your damn son made of? Gold?

What about your daughter? she's so much better than your son.

Matured, a good girl, a girl that rely on you but not more than your old son.

Why the hell would you even not care her and focus more on that son?

To me, she is made up of DIAMONDS siar-.-

And even my flesh(zzz), i don't even bear to hurt her.

Gosh lah. Look at him.

What can he do except for studying?

To me, he can't even take care of himself for 1 day.

Eh why not you set your girl free and let me to take care of her for the rest of her life.

I'll do so much things just for her.

I'll listen to her. Wait for her to try on the clothes which she likes.

Buy her the things that she likes or needs.

Unlike you, seriously, UNLIKE YOU.

I heard so many things from her.

Even something so cheap and you didn't even wanna buy.

as for your son, whatever he want, you'll get it for him.

Little prince huh?

Even smth that is DAMN fucking ugly, like the jeans?

And so ex. You would rather buy for him, not your daughter.

Your daughter waited for him to try on clothes, yet he can't?

Like as if he's an ice and he'll melt is it?

He said your daughter what, ugly ah?

After cutting her hair?

Please hor, he think he's very handsome? Dashing? whatever shit?

Tell him, there's smth called MIRROR.

Face full of holes. WOW!

Face so big. WOW!

If his sister is ugly, so is he.

Studies good right?

What are GENES?

omg man, heng she don't even look like him.

If not i'll get nightmares everynight when i think of her.

Girl, it's okay.

When we grow up, i'll make your life so much better than now.

I'm sure there'll be no complains at all, from you.

everything comes to an end at 11:56 PM.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Yesterdayyy:D

Happy 14th month<3

Hee. We went to BestBestQuality(?) Chicken for lunch.

Shopped!

She bought me a top from Adidas! YAY!

I just realised, she is a normal girl too!

She shop for kinda long, and she tried clothes even longer!

So we went to Down Town,

Then rent bike from workplace,

cycled to the beach and rest.

So we went cycling awhile and went back!

Dinner-ed, went homeee!

Thank you for everything(;

Basketball, basketball.

What can i do?

i tried to prevent my heart from aching again.

I gave you my paper instead of keeping for myself.

Just because of what.

What if i want you to quit that damn fuck shit.

You will, but you won't be happy.

I don't do that too.

Trainings again, i couldn't attend and i have to think so much fuck.

So what if i tell you i'm sad, you can comfort.

But not mend the wound.

So what if i want just your heart.

You're able to give, but not totally.

all i want is just a thing that you can prove.

F.A.I.T.H.F.U.L.N.E.S.S

Are you able to give me that now?

No. you're not.

I do not care whether i do smile or look at girls right now.

Because we dont seems to care anymore.

Once you cut through my heart, i'm sorry i'm not able to trust you anymore.

There are alot of things i wanna know and ask.

I tried not to, just in case i will be upset.

Please, spare a thought for me.

Why are you messaging her once you end your paper instead of me?

I'm staying in school just to wait for you to have your recess.

In the end i just found out smth that really breaks my heart.

Would you like it if i'm in a same cca as this girl, and i'm always talking to her.

Yet i gave you an excuse, IS OUR CCA.

how would you feel.

i'm really really gonna give up soon, i don't want myself to always think about all this things during my exams,

and affect my studies.

And i'm not even good in studying.

Do you know how much i feel like just giving you a slap.

And fight the hell out with her in the canteen.

Just for you? why am i even doing this when you don't care about my feelings.

if you'd read all this, don't talk to me about it.

I seriously, don't want to say any further.

everything comes to an end at 7:12 PM.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Hellooo! I am home around 9);
Yesterday, i had mother's day dinner with my granny, mummy, uncle, aunt and cousins O.o
It was so fucking exxx!
Back home at 11 or later i guess(:

Today, i met my bung cousinnn. Then we kinda went shopping together.
I want alot of things from Adidas.):
I love a green and white pair of shoes again,
& a golden and black shirttt); Got many moreee):
Sigh!
My cousin GRABBED my face and showed to her another butch friend-.-!
I bought mother's day present. i think i spent $40+
Haha. quite cheap lahhh. i buy her one handbag, and a ring watch.
Damnnn cute:D
I'm left with $80 for my pig's present(;
I haven't got myself anything for so long.
Not even a single bottle of wax! I eyed on one wax for very longgg):
I want a Fudge badly instead, it's nice to use:D
But $33 per bottle); and only salon sell.
okay, so after buying presents and shopping, cycled back to her house.
Omg i grew taller can. i almost hit the bus stop thing when i was messaging.
Luckily i never stand damn straight if not i will be on the floor while my cousin cycle off ._.
Basketball, match with two guys. we still won although they are older-.-
A-B-C-ed! haha. i was stucked at my right side because i'm left handed,
but i managed to catch up!(:

Alright, i shall stoooop hereee!:D

I miss you so much baby, not able to see you for so long, it's really killing me..
You owe me one BIGGG kiss on tuesday alright!
I'll try to plan on it if i have time.
Most probably will lahhh, but i dunno where to bring you to.
Hope to see your pig faceee soon..);

everything comes to an end at 10:38 PM.

Friday, May 8, 2009

haha, i slept for 12 hours. lol!
I went home early, in the afternoon. Then i slept, till the next morning?! wtf cannn.
1 hour paper today, was damn early.
So was slacking in school awhile with NiMa, then class for Maths lesson.
Never even join them, lol.
Got revision paperrrr! Thanks anw.
okay, met ys for present, but i didn't bought mine. cos she doesn't have time-.-
Went to see puppieees, then whitesands to buy her strawberry heart-shape cheese thingy(;
Send her to ahma house block:D Didn't meet Germaine cos was tired and she's at pasir ris when i'm at bedok, can't expect me to wait mah. I don't wait for people, haha. Yep, somemore mummy don't really like me to stay out till night. Home, ordered Mac.
Wow, full. I'm gonna go 'GEOG'-ing to lose my fats mannn.
Yay, last 3 papers next week and i won't be going back school for those activitiesss(:
But i think i'll die at home without doing much things cos all of them are in school);
Can't even be seen nearby school, unless i always hide at the blocks, like some PI? LOL.

Heee.. sorry baby, i don't wanna quarrel with you anymore.
Maybe as you said, time out?
It'll be better for us to think, think of what that lead us to this.
Alright. When we're fine, we'll contact again.
Understand and look through(:
I promise you, we will be back fine because i love you.
Must rmb what i said before okay..=)
Okay, i got to go. Anyway, it's not that i don't wanna reply now.
Just that i'm disappointed in myself, not your fault kay.
I got no face to tell you, so i'm saying it here.
See you soon, on our anni( ;
Goodnight, dearest<3

Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil' way that you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I ain't sure, but one thing that I do know is

Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
When you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
When we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don't know why it's like that
But you're so damn sexy
When you're mad.

everything comes to an end at 11:59 PM.

Monday, May 4, 2009

YO MAN!
First day of exams today(;
Martens didn't allow me to take it, but i dunno why when i went to rtc, Mrs 'Arkbar' gave me my paper and i was so happy that i keep smiling. LOL.
I'm not very sure whether can i take my paper 2 tmr not);
Hmmm.. so yeah after school, L and YS went to mama shop.
So L left, had lunch with YS.
She cabbed to Ngee Ann, i went back and changed.
Went to fetch her at Ngee Ann!(:
18-ed to her house and find zy to get her books.
WE FOUND $250! GOSHHH. DAMN HAPPY.
LOL. But my 100 is gone cos i gave my ahma, aunty and mummy money.
I bought Anlene for them. Damn ex cannn.
Then a small bottle of Jelly bean and Kinder Joy for YS.
then my mum shop alot know! until my money almost all gone. LOL.
Cos she keep look at things for damn long so i just put it in the basket.
Cab home and now blogging! I wanna sleep soon, hope i can TOUCH my paper 2 tmr(;
Goodnight!

everything comes to an end at 11:25 PM.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

My plan today...

Leave house at 1!
Reach Tampines at 2!
Hmmm.. Study till 4?
Buy something from century!
Buy two things from basement!
Go Pasir Ris to get something again!
17 to find her pass her everything!
Then 17 back home again(;

Siannn... you always disappoint me nowadays.
I am so sad. this is the first time i would give you long message.
But what did i get back in return. I thought everything will turn out the other way.
No it didn't. It's okay. I'll try to get used to it, or maybe not giving you anything anymore.

everything comes to an end at 11:48 AM.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

NAPFA RESULTTT!

Sighhh.. Jilyn told me i'm third in class. what the hell can.
And the second girl's result is 8 seconds difference from mine.
Didn't get into top 10, DUH! LOL.

I'm starting to miss my dearest girl);
I wanna see her, i didn't talk to her much cos today i kept falling asleep, and so did she!
I even fell asleep in front of my comp-.-
While waiting for it to start and sign in for whatever thing, i slept without covering my face.
Omg unglam! Luckily, mum's reading newspaper(;
haha whoever is gonna stay with me next time will get to laugh each and everyday i guess.
I'm kinda retarded as i growwww):
Yay, my hottest babe came back from her piano!:D
Gtg! Bye(;

everything comes to an end at 7:51 PM.